Musings of a sexually addicted former pastor

Its amazing how easy it is for me to get caught up in the "gain it", "win it", "succeed" club. All I have to do is surrender my ideas and expectations to the Lord and life goes much easier, less stress, more contentment and generally a more fulfilling existance. But then I hear some guy on TV preaching the "good life", the "abundant life" and my joy vanishes and I stare at the TV looking for some secret knowledge to improve my life. Sigh....

Its weird because I know is some respects that the information given is probably biblical but God doesn't seem to be blessing this seeking after sucess in my life. I feel Him telling me to surrender and relax. Surrender my expectations and simply follow Him. I can't watch these guys on the TV telling me to dream big without ending up very discontented.

Musings of a sexually addicted former pastor

Musings of a sexually addicted former pastor

10 months...again.

Last week was ten months. I suppose it would be a big deal if I hadn't been down this road so many times before. So here I am again, getting healthier and more open to being fearlessly honest and vulnerable. I suppose that is why I've include my real name in this blog instead of using a fake one. Since I've never done this before I feel some pressure to try and make this really profound or something (laughing). Perhaps I'm misjudging the size of my audience (grin).

I'm tired and going to bed. I'll see if this thing works.