tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-231473352011-04-21T13:01:36.978-07:00Six years of recovery and a lot of defeats and precious victories. Honest thoughts of doubt, faith and trust.Kellyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01040275785585728198noreply@blogger.comBlogger31100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23147335.post-1141229570834307632006-03-01T08:12:00.000-08:002006-03-01T08:12:50.833-08:00Its amazing how easy it is for me to get caught up in the "gain it", "win it", "succeed" club. All I have to do is surrender my ideas and expectations to the Lord and life goes much easier, less stress, more contentment and generally a more fulfilling existance. But then I hear some guy on TV preaching the "good life", the "abundant life" and my joy vanishes and I stare at the TV looking for some secret knowledge to improve my life. Sigh....<br /><br />Its weird because I know is some respects that the information given is probably biblical but God doesn't seem to be blessing this seeking after sucess in my life. I feel Him telling me to surrender and relax. Surrender my expectations and simply follow Him. I can't watch these guys on the TV telling me to dream big without ending up very discontented.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23147335-114122957083430763?l=kjhrrh.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Kellyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01040275785585728198noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23147335.post-1141229253021377872006-03-01T08:07:00.000-08:002006-03-01T08:07:33.030-08:00<a href="http://kjhrrh.blogspot.com/">Musings of a sexually addicted former pastor</a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23147335-114122925302137787?l=kjhrrh.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Kellyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01040275785585728198noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23147335.post-1141108445256309892006-02-27T22:29:00.000-08:002006-02-27T22:34:05.266-08:00Last week was ten months. I suppose it would be a big deal if I hadn't been down this road so many times before. So here I am again, getting healthier and more open to being fearlessly honest and vulnerable. I suppose that is why I've include my real name in this blog instead of using a fake one. Since I've never done this before I feel some pressure to try and make this really profound or something (laughing). Perhaps I'm misjudging the size of my audience (grin). <br /><br />I'm tired and going to bed. I'll see if this thing works.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/23147335-114110844525630989?l=kjhrrh.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Kellyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01040275785585728198noreply@blogger.com0